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the nezz to do list. [Mar. 1st, 2015|12:26 am]
[Current Mood |determineddetermined]
[Current Music |nine inch nails - in this twilight]

the nezz to do list. started 1 Feburary 2008. To be completed before I die, or become incompetent to do daily routines. Maybe added on to, but with added date stamped.
  • speak Polish fluently
  • learn some form of martial arts
  • become a decent photographer
  • take a coffee barista course via http://baristaacademy.com.au/training-courses/
  • become comfortable with at least one programming language
  • paint an art idea
  • have my own website
  • dye my hair a vibrant colour
  • participate in a protest
  • travel to at least one other country
  • participate or watch roller derby
  • hike to a mountain or go on a trail
  • create my own music
  • play in a band live at least once more
  • learn to play piano - at least master basic techniques
  • make a video - anything
  • go go-karting
  • see snow
  • write a poem or lyrics I am happy with
  • hang with some monks
  • complete another degree
  • learn to snorkel
  • complete a first aid course
  • have a pet cat
  • grow a vegetable patch
  • learn to sew competently
  • learn to screen print
  • watch a play, opera or ballet - any old style of performace
  • cross the nullarbor - whether that is by car or plane once more
  • learn to meditate

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Solo Project [Sep. 20th, 2013|06:39 pm]
[Current Location |Work]
[Current Music |Mera Mann Kehne Laga - Falak Shabir]

Here's a list of things I'd like to do whenever I am on my lonesome (let's hope never :P)

- Try for Kakapo Volunteer work - http://kakaporecovery.org.nz/volunteers/
- Travel to Bhutan
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Remarkable resemblance. [Aug. 30th, 2012|07:12 am]
Two/three months of the same occurring dream every week or so.

That always upset me, confused me by it's meaning (and believe me, I am the last person to even consider "dream books" and crap like that) and had me thinking.

Then this morning, it's sitting in my Inbox.

I just fucking hope the other dreams I've had don't translate straight into reality like this kind of has.

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Emotions vs. Logic [Jul. 22nd, 2012|12:37 pm]
My emotions get the better of me.
To the point where I appear to feel physically crippled.

Chest pains.
Head is heavy.
Hunger is gone.

I got stressed out making a mistake the other day. It complete overcame me.

Now, again, we have another miscommunication between us and my heart feels like its being smashed continuously with the biggest hammer on earth.

How on earth do I fix this....
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So much hope [Jul. 9th, 2012|01:40 pm]
001 of 366 by nezzle
001 of 366, a photo by nezzle on Flickr.

We welcome the New Year with so much excitement......I hope we can continue our lives together with this much happiness and excitement. Wish things could go back to normal <3

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Mistakes and No Regrets [May. 8th, 2012|08:35 pm]
a) ending a seven year relationship by the means in which I did (should of been honest with myself & him)
b) telling someone I don't know at all too much
c) not being on my alone before
d) listening to friends who care
e) believing I can fix thing through mutual rational discussion

No regrets
a) meeting and maintaning a relationship with Aneesh
b) moving to Auckland
c) living alone
d) leaving my previous long-term relationship
e) leaving Collie for Perth
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Appropriate Feeling Song #1 [Apr. 15th, 2012|07:55 pm]
All of my days are blending into one lonely night
I keep hoping that you're on your way over but I'm probably losing sight
Just when I started to feel good
You called me up on the phone
Askin' how I've been and what am I doin'
and I say, "Nothing much at all. In fact, I haven't really been home."
I've been wandering around
You know I couldn't love you more
But I'm sure you've heard it all before
I've been wandering around
I've been wandering
I've been wandering around
All of my days are blending...

Coconut Records - Wandering Around
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Hope [Mar. 30th, 2012|01:20 pm]
Hope is what makes the world go 'round.

Hope is what makes us put on the lottery.

Hope is what makes us apply for crazy jobs.

Hope is what makes us fall in love.

Hope is what makes us believe we can be together again.
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Ka-bam. [Dec. 3rd, 2009|10:54 pm]
Who would of thought a new job at a little cafe in town and the quitting of one of my existing jobs was all I needed to feel better again?

I actually feel like a person again. Like I do have a purpose. All because I make coffee for people.

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Ungrateful shit. [Nov. 12th, 2009|10:22 pm]
[Current Mood |sadsad]

I really despise one of my jobs. Didn't think I could feel so crappy about a stupid job. My boss has lost his passion for his business, and that, in turn, has made for a stale and unpleasant environment at work. It doesn't help we are particularly dead in terms of business, and I spend too much time doing nothing. That is not the sort of worker I am. 

And I really dislike my current living arrangements. I feel bad because I feel like I don't clean enough. And I don't even have anything to say/talk about with one of the other people I live with. That kind of bums me out. 

I have a fucking roof over my head; for free too.  We are not in poverty; we aren't starving - we can buy food when its needed. 
I have two jobs. Which is more then some people can say in this current economic climate.

But I feel fucking miserable.
I know it isn't forever, but I just can't snap out of it. 

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