| Mistakes and No Regrets |
[May. 8th, 2012|08:35 pm] |
Mistakes
a) ending a seven year relationship by the means in which I did (should of been honest with myself & him)
b) telling someone I don't know at all too much
c) not being on my alone before
d) listening to friends who care
e) believing I can fix thing through mutual rational discussion
No regrets
a) meeting and maintaning a relationship with Aneesh
b) moving to Auckland
c) living alone
d) leaving my previous long-term relationship
e) leaving Collie for Perth |
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| Appropriate Feeling Song #1 |
[Apr. 15th, 2012|07:55 pm] |
All of my days are blending into one lonely night
I keep hoping that you're on your way over but I'm probably losing sight
Just when I started to feel good
You called me up on the phone
Askin' how I've been and what am I doin'
and I say, "Nothing much at all. In fact, I haven't really been home."
I've been wandering around
You know I couldn't love you more
But I'm sure you've heard it all before
I've been wandering around
I've been wandering
I've been wandering around
Around
All of my days are blending...
Coconut Records - Wandering Around |
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| Hope |
[Mar. 30th, 2012|01:20 pm] |
Hope is what makes the world go 'round.
Hope is what makes us put on the lottery.
Hope is what makes us apply for crazy jobs.
Hope is what makes us fall in love.
Hope is what makes us believe we can be together again. |
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| the nezz to do list. |
[Feb. 1st, 2012|12:26 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | nine inch nails - in this twilight | ] |
the nezz to do list. started 1 Feburary 2008. To be completed before I die, or become incompetent to do daily routines. Maybe added on to, but with added date stamped.
- speak Polish fluently
- learn some form of martial arts
- become a decent photographer
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take a coffee barista course via http://baristaacademy.com.au/training-courses/
- become comfortable with at least one programming language
- paint an art idea
- have my own website
- dye my hair a vibrant colour
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participate in a protest
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travel to at least one other country
- particpate or watch roller derby
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hike to a mountain or go on a trail
- create my own music
- play in a band live at least once more
- learn to play piano - at least master basic techniques
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make a video - anything
- go go-karting
- see snow
- write a poem or lyrics I am happy with
- hang with some monks
- complete another degree
- learn to snorkel
- complete a first aid course
- have a pet cat
- grow a vegetable patch
- learn to sew competently
- learn to screen print
- watch a play, opera or ballet - any old style of performace
- cross the nullarbor - whether that is by car or plane once more
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learn to meditate
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| Ka-bam. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2009|10:54 pm] |
Who would of thought a new job at a little cafe in town and the quitting of one of my existing jobs was all I needed to feel better again?
I actually feel like a person again. Like I do have a purpose. All because I make coffee for people.
^__________^ |
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| Ungrateful shit. |
[Nov. 12th, 2009|10:22 pm] |
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I really despise one of my jobs. Didn't think I could feel so crappy about a stupid job. My boss has lost his passion for his business, and that, in turn, has made for a stale and unpleasant environment at work. It doesn't help we are particularly dead in terms of business, and I spend too much time doing nothing. That is not the sort of worker I am.
And I really dislike my current living arrangements. I feel bad because I feel like I don't clean enough. And I don't even have anything to say/talk about with one of the other people I live with. That kind of bums me out.
I have a fucking roof over my head; for free too. We are not in poverty; we aren't starving - we can buy food when its needed.
I have two jobs. Which is more then some people can say in this current economic climate.
But I feel fucking miserable.
I know it isn't forever, but I just can't snap out of it.
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| Priorities |
[Oct. 30th, 2009|01:53 am] |
So there's this pretty decent job in the local paper, and all I can think about is, if I apply, will I still get time off to see Them Crooked Vultures?
Think I am failing at this so called 'adulthood' thing. I have this silly little motivation to work at an awesome cafe and make awesome coffee all day. Not exactly a well paid job around here. I would also really love to design logos and ultimately sites for people. But my lack of confidence, experience and skills don't really help. I would love to travel. Go to Poland. All my priorities muddle each other up.
So what's the next step?
Get my license to help me really pursue something I might enjoy?
Or get a decent paid job now?
Hang in there a bit longer till I can finally plan things out myself and do what I actually desire to do?
My mind is just all over the place about making these next life choices. And whilst I realise I ultimately have the power to do whatever I can put my mind to, I am confused as to whether I am expecting too much to start doing what I want to do.
Damn indecisiveness and overthinking.
Something noteworthy : nice to see so many people still using LJ :)
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| Return of the calm. |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|02:03 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | hope, life | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  optimistic | ] |
Neglecting this little space of mine on the Internets has likely to have cause more stress during this year. It's like when I had a sitdiary.net account back in the days of highschool - venting somewhere just helped let it out.
( So here is when I start to speak.... )
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| Why.... |
[Aug. 7th, 2009|11:22 pm] |
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| |  pessimistic | ] |
...do I keep going backwards. Sure, I'll have completed a degree this year. But everything else feels like its flatlined. |
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| Tasty Rental Freedom. |
[Mar. 27th, 2009|12:23 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | moving, postgrad | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | homez | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Not So Pretty Now | ] |
OH HAI.
Hope everyone is well. LJ seems a little quieter these days (understandable when there are so many social networks wanting your attention)
This year is looking pretty awesome. In fact, a lot of people seemed to bring the new year in with a lot of hope and feeling that this was going to be the year.
As I mentioned in the last blog, last year was a bit rough. So I guess any year can be better then ones like that.
We've finally moved into![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) moistywipe's Dad's house, rent free. Mind you, it was quite entertaining trying to fit a small townhouse worth of crap into 2 rooms. We've yet to unpack (even after more then a month), since more room needs to be made, but I am pretty happy here :) Hopefully, we can save a nice amount of money for future endeavours.
This final year of uni is turning out to be fantastic. Maybe its because I know I am finishing, and because I actually choice units without any guidance this time, but I feel more motivated then before. Shame I couldn't have this awesome work ethic the whole time during my degree, heh. Now it's just a matter of having a bit of planning for next year. I am so used to just doing things I worked out years ago. This time 'round, I am still not sure what sort of possible career path I could take (I mean, ideally I would just love to travel, but I have to make money first). So, at the moment I am scouting some postgrads in either media studies or computer security.
But we shall see what the year brings, eh? Anything could happen!
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